i don’t have life

i don’t have life and
yet life makes me,
shapes me into a large,
yellow vegetable if not
a heavy coconut ready
to drop from overhead…
just as i disappointed
you, laid across my
burdens against your
garden… i didn’t
mean to stump your
roses, nor lavender
from coming into
fruition… the drought
i cannot fight off
with water because even
i can’t keep myself
from getting thirsty